Thursday, October 15, 2009
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Yesterday for some strange reason i was in such a funk when i got home from watching the kids that i didn't even feel like moving. I washed my dog and found a way to take a shower eat dinner watch a movie and crash i was burnt out. And through all that i forgot to send a message to my Aunty one of the most important people in my life ha what a retard i am. She then labled me a "flake" this morning which sorta stung really hard to my heart. I guess i just don't get it. I try my best to follow through on things and make sure i communicate but sometimes when things are crazy i just forget.
I am trying to keep my head up and above water ha not working as well as i would have liked. I am so tired right now as i sit at work and stare into space. I am done with everything for now. We have closing tomorrow so i know that i need to make sure that we are ready. Just bla.....
Then to top off everything found out that last nights lovely display of hellicopters flying around my house was the police looking for some gang member who tried to rob someone in the Grace Church parking lot which is not far from my house at all. The person who was getting robbed tried to flee from the robbers headed towards the fountain that is in the court yard and was shot in the ankle. Nice just more excitement in my neighborhood to make me feel even safer HAHAH not! So when do i get to move out of this state and this city? Hopefully soon.. I am losing it muahahahhahhahh.
Anyways enough with this rediculousness....
Monday, August 17, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Haha we are cheesy as usual... Tyler and I posing at Christie's wedding we always have to take these random photos together just cus that's how we roll... It was a good day.... We were both very tired and ready to pass out about then. I only had like 4 hours of sleep or so and well i am not sure how many he had but i know he was dragging as well...
Holly and I at Christie's wedding it's always tradition for her and i to take a picture together when we are at a gathering. Its funny how that started. It began at one of Christie's birthday parties if i am not mistaken.... and well it has just snowballed from there. Holly has such a big heart i love being her friend. :) She has encouraged me alot this past weekend i was really struggling with that fact that i have given up my ex to the Lord and that i am single. I am feeling more and more ready with this move on to move on lol. It's been a difficult road, but one that i know will grow me further into who ever it is i am supposed to be. Also it is preparing me for the guy that God has ready and waiting for me who ever he is....
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
I just broke up with Celvin for good. Many of you guys have been through these trials with me and know what i have gone through, but i think i need to just write it all down so i can put it aside and move forward.
I know that things took a turn for the worst after we broke up for the second time... I ended up dating someone else and that started the whole issue. Truthfully Celvin and I are just two different people. I am a very out going, crazy, fun loving person, and I love to be involved in church and it kills me to not be able to do that. I could truthfully go live in another country sharing the gospel living everyday on the graces of Christ providing for me. He is the type of person that will try to achieve everything he possibly can in life to have anything he wants.
Our friends are not similar at all as well. He told me recently that his friends don't like me... and i tend to ask myself how is that possible when i barely even know them. They seem to take my personality wrong which i myself know is very possible and common. My friends as well don't seem to understand him or get along with him and he tells me he doesn't like my friends either... So all in all its just not gonna work.
I am the girl that likes to be outdoors, possibly always doing something, spending time with friends and family, and just all around a goofball. He on the other hand loves to work alot and loves to play video games.
Right now i know it hurts this whole situation is painful and weird but i know it will only get better once i learn to get past this... I know i have some amazing people around me right now... some part of "the commune" and some just old time friends and the best human friend ever my mom. I also have a friend in my Lord and Savior what more could i ask for right?
Well it is now time for me to get back to working and i will blog more later...